Summary of Updates
Thursday 4/10
*Follow-up appointment with surgical oncologist for drain removal from surgery #2
*Concern for infection due to size, color, shape of L side
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*We've added bows and dinos to the boys' crayon hustle
Friday 4/11
*Gavin and I find Lenny with a baby bunny in his mouth in the morning- the bunny appears to have 2 broken back legs and is only able to move by dragging them
*I wrap the bunny in a towel, however it drags itself out and hides under the grill
*I frantically find a number to call for small game and leave a message about an injured bunny
*I have to rush to a follow-up appointment with Dr. Morrissey (plastics and reconstruction)
*As a reminder, he ordered an aspiration of my L side which was completed Tuesday to remove some fluid and send a sample off for culture
*He did not feel it looked any better (samesies)
*I had been having pain on both sides from armpit to all the way across my chest, my range of motion was significantly limited with how high I could raise my arms, and I felt ICK.
*His office sent me directly to SLUHN Bethlehem IR for immediate aspiration B/L as well as drain placement
*That was ZERO stars. I was as stoic as the day I went for a mammogram and ended up with 16 biopsies
*I was not planning on this - I JUST HAD A DRAIN REMOVED
*I was awake for the aspirations and drain placements 🤢
*When the team was done, I sat up and just silently sobbed. It was SO much emotionally.
*I got to my car and full on sobbed. Every time I think I am taking a step forward, I take a giant leap backward.
*I returned home. The baby bunny was curled up, dead, under the grille.
*I went to bed. I went under the covers. This day was too much. I cried myself to sleep…even if it was only 1:00 in the afternoon
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*The boys continue to work hard and bust out all these orders we got now that the letter molds arrived
Saturday 4/12
*My mood has shifted tremendously- I don't feel great.
*The last thing I wanted was more drains and now I have #6 and #7 - and they are coming from the middle front of the left and side of the right - just uncomfortable locations
*I started reading this book about functional medicine and while I initially agreed with a lot, I realize it is putting me in a bad spot
*Essentially, the book is telling me, I caused my cancer - it says, cancer doesn't just occur - it is a part of the person - the person grew this tumor in response to an environment they created
*Well SHIT FUCK DAMNIT
*Now I am all types of stressed about what I could be doing better to help heal myself
*I hate this book.
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*Crayon hustle is exploding
* I 'same day' delivery ordered more molds the other day so the boys can deliver product in a timely manner
*At least this keeps me going 😒
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